【千岛诗刊1138期】“没有遗憾的告别”——纪念本社咨询委员王锦华女士特辑

千岛特刊
1138期

纪念本社咨询委员
王锦华女士[1942 - 2022]特辑








王锦华女士简介：

祖籍福建晋江，一九四二年出生于菲律宾。一九八七年以《时间之梯》荣获菲律宾中正学院校友会散文奖第二名，并于一九九三年被收入《中华散文赏析选篇辞典》。一九八九年散文《大哥》荣获海外华文艺季散文奖比赛之佳作奖。着有《时间之梯》、《异梦同床》、《甜的眼泪》。


〈A flutter〉
/ Michael Angelo Chua


A flutter
Butterfly colored wings
Each flap colors the ambiance
Fleeting kaleidoscope

A flutter
No
More

Whispering colors continue
To color the ambiance
Memories forever.

10/12/22


〈一种颤动〉 / 蔡思汗
﹝千岛诗社译﹞

颤动
蝴蝶彩色的翅膀
每次振翼都鲜艳了风景
稍纵即逝的万花筒

这颤动
不
不再有了

缤纷的细语依旧
为风景着色
永恒的回忆

2022年10月12日


〈Mama〉
/ Michael Angelo Chua


Resting. A flowery urn.
Seems like a moment ago
We were sipping wine
Trying to see who gets the last piece of cheese.
Always me. You made sure of that.

Sleeping. A resting place.
Seems like yesterday
We were reminiscing memories
Trying to see who remembers what
Always you. Your love remembers all.

Loving. A time forever.
Yesterday you said goodbye.
No more new memories.
No worries. We have enough of those.
Keeping us intertwined and connected.
Beyond time. Beyond life. Beyond death.

10/17/22



〈妈妈〉 / 蔡思汗
﹝千岛诗社译﹞

安息，一个鲜花花纹的骨灰瓮。
像才没多久前而已
我们喝着红酒
看谁会吃掉最后一块起司
总是我，您总会让着我。

安眠，一处安息的地方。
像是昨日而已
我们还在追忆往事
看大家都记住了什么
总是您，您总把细节铭记于心

慈爱，一段永恒的光阴。
昨日您作了道别
之后不会再有新的回忆
不要紧，我们拥有的已足够
使我们永不会分离
哪怕时间、生命、死亡

2022年10月17日




〈Sunrise〉
/ Michael Angelo Chua


Sunsets are heaviest when
they set in my heart
When tears replace the blood
filling up my veins

Sunsets are darkest when
I cannot even see
the silhouette that defines you
The black longing engulfs

Sunrise. Citius.



〈日出〉 / 蔡思汗
﹝千岛诗社译﹞


最沉重的日落是
当它跌落在我心里
当血液变成泪水
注满我的血管

最黯淡的日落是
当我无法看出
被黑夜不留情地吞噬的
您影子的轮廓

日出，快点。




〈小店〉/ 思恩
——忆锦华谊母


思汗曾说
你是所有人的妈妈
手心的温度均匀地撒向
每一个从身旁路过的纯真
藏起岁月留下的痕迹
温柔地
拂去不属于手背的泥土

相钰学着你的样子
俨然大家长
细细呵护每一片落叶
为来回踏步、并肩的行人
点亮几盏星光

相提追赶上你的梦
共同捍卫
那
诗意溢出杯沿
月曲了与锦华的
「小店」

在城市喧嚣里
找寻一张谧静的卡座




〈走入童话〉 / 椰子
——忆王锦华女士


将高跟鞋扔进一首诗后
她即赤脚返回娘家
那久远而未尽的童话

童话的小径词语青青
而她现实的小店招牌依旧
当你重访那里 落座窗边
那折射的光 光里的尘埃
如主人的封面浮现又消散

消散了纸墨的芳香

2022/10/26




〈有一种情深〉 / 苏荣超
——叫做「月曲了」与「王锦华」


让一只高跟鞋去修饰
他诗句中的意像
童话其实并不遥远
总是在午夜刚响时向日葵笑靥如花

情深就在岁月两端探寻
手中牵动的长线
缠绕着破碎舞步，而身影凌乱
仿似滞留夜的衣领上
那枚今生缘份
在褪色的青春里依然灿烂

刚好，落在繁花入梦的三月
在你的眉头我的腮边拍翅。飞翔

我只是平凡的女子，无意飘流
为了一座小小的花冢
当月光如水你将涉水而来
接我，在水之湄在忧愁之外
筑梦、对唱并用一首诗去
追究前生 那瓣伸出莲池的
修行的荷

2022-10-15




〈诗涌千岛〉 / 王勇
——怀诗友月曲了王锦华


房间旷野里，轻风柔软
月曲了和王锦华对坐品茗
身前，一道棋盘
演化宇宙大道
落子无悔的往事啊
再大的风也吹不散

推开房间旷野的门，跨一步
即是小店，人间烟火萦绕
润饼、乌鸡当归汤
淬炼出满店浓浓的诗意
月曲了的手迹散发着墨香
王锦华的厨艺琴瑟和鸣

踏出小店，站在浩瀚的时空
仰首望向月曲了文艺基金会
在诗的广场闪闪生辉，这块
用汉字与意像打造的招牌
迎着岷湾的浪花太平洋的涛声
轻轻一推，便诗涌千岛

2022-10-22




〈王城记游〉
/ 侯建州


记忆中发亮的片段与零碎
其实
都是永恒

那天下午
千岛聚会后
我们共乘往王城同游
有人在前
有人在后
愉悦的脚步与嬉闹声与快门声
还有三把吉他
此起彼落
交互回荡在
马尼拉
穿越古今东西的城与墙
那是我们一起踏出的历史

倏地
下了一场雨
我们顺势到有遮蔽的小店
躲雨用点心
谈着时代的变化、闽华共学、小店与诗
还有台北、台南与花莲
月曲未曾了
有人拿起手机自拍
有人口里咀嚼的蛋糕被无预警的笑话
呛出了眼泪
好甜也好美
雨一停，我们起身继续
边走边拍
踏上时间的阶梯
久置干涸的喷泉口
涌出甜美嘹亮的雨水
蜿蜒的水道
潺湲着体谅的甜与美



◎「三把吉他」（Sampaguita)是诗人谢馨早年的名作。将菲语的茉莉花，菲律宾国花与华语的三把吉他halo halo成一首诗，歌咏菲律宾的多元文化，诗中亦有王城景观。

我曾在一次王彬街的千岛聚会后，与王自然王兆镛伉俪及王锦华母女共游王城。忽然想起，记忆中曾在古喷泉前合影，影中满是欢喜的雨水。谨以此诗怀念永远的好朋友谢馨（1938-2021）、王自然(1939-2019)、王锦华(1942-2022)。




〈芒果干〉
/ 侯建州


那几包
香润饱满的芒果干
在菲律宾的土地长成
在菲律宾的土地加工
由马尼拉的家人嘱托代转
越过巴士海峡
穿过中央山脉
每一口
都是丰满滋润的情味
指上舌间心中是甜的眼泪
甘而不干

我记得
有人总执拗地
要我
常去小店走走
吃吃小吃
聊聊小诗
要我为镜内与镜外的诗刊
多写诗
还顺便塞给我
一包又一包的零食
当然也有芒果干

每次看到芒果
都想起那几包芒果干
每回看到小店
都想起那小店
还有芒果干
每回……



◎王锦华(1942-2022)，牵手是菲华诗人月曲了，两人曾一起经营「小店」，着有「时间之梯」、「甜的眼泪」与我什投缘。须文蔚教授一年受邀至菲律宾千岛诗社演讲，返台前王锦华女士托其转交芒果干数包给在洄澜的我，要我别忘了「家乡味」。又忆起曾经在菲律宾受其邀请至小店用餐聊天，欢声笑语连连，离去依依，又追出来塞给我一包接一包的热情与暖意。日昨惊闻锦华女士往生，前去与月曲了共游，悲欣交集，在镜内与境外的时间之梯流下甜的眼泪。




〈千岛诗舞之夜〉 / 卓培林
——怀念绵华前辈


诗句跳动
起舞翩跹
您和月曲了兄紧揽
和音轻旋舞池
平凡社长的My Way
深沉扣动每位
千岛人的心弦
泥水前辈的榕树下
在凯越的大厅回旋
光与影激唱诗章
谢馨的撒哈拉
自弹自唱嗨翻
马尼拉湾思念的浪花

天堂需要诗歌
群星闪烁簇拥
有船歌伴着流星
千岛过往的前辈
诗耀星河凝望
马尼拉湾千岛一家人
怀念追忆的无限浪花
谱写一曲永恒的
天上人间

2022年10月26日于嘉得斋




〈贤伉俪〉 / 施文志
——悼王锦华思月曲了


在房间旷野
仰望天空
一对比翼鸟
飞向天堂
在比心更深的地方
筑芦舍
隐居世俗外

在时间的边界
鹣鲽重逢情更深
你的眼光不是碎的
妳的眼泪是甜的
对对岁月
俪影双双
同床不异梦




〈恩爱夫妻〉 / 小钧
——忆月曲了诗长悼王锦华前辈


锦华景龙缘结校园
青春相恋中正学院
淑女君子缘定三生
夫唱妇随千岛欢聚
起舞翩翩诗舞之夜
小店泡茶盎然诗意
诗文合集异梦同床
恩爱夫妻文坛佳话
房间旷野同心歌唱
折断手指冬天起火
比心更深筑舍隐居
月曲了诗奖兑夙愿






〈NO WORDS LEFT UNSPOKEN〉/ Mona Lisa Chua
Hearts intertwined.Overflowing love freely shared between us.What else is there to say?
When dad passed away, I was very fearful that you would follow him right away. I always pray to God not to take you home so soon as my greatest fear is to lose another loving parent.  Being the inseparable couple that you were, I can see how your world crashed with papa’s departure. There was never a day that you would not call his name … MIA …MIA…..! It has actually become a regular chant everyone hears from you wherever you are. But you stayed on for another 11 years to build many happy memories with us, your children whom you equally love before you finally went home to our Creator and be reunited with papa.
Despite your longing for papa,  you continued to fight and live life just to keep everything moving. Physically, there was no downtime, you continued to do your regular work, cooking in particular, and other chores amidst the pain. People thought you would give up on life and everyone was so worried about you, and yet, you surprised all of us with the way you have coped. In less than 3 years, you established 「月曲了文艺基金会」， published 3 books 「镜内」「你走后」「异梦同床」and even held poetry contests to keep papa’s memory alive.
Mama, you and Papa were truly exceptional. Mike, Martini and myself are truly blessed to have both of you as our parents. You have filled us up with so much love and care that we don’t need to find it elsewhere. The days ahead maybe scary and will definitely be lonely but don’t worry about us and me most especially. By God’s grace and mercy, I know I will be okay. And being an exact replica of you, I know I will be strong just like you because this is how you have raised me.
I am most proud and happy whenever people will tell me – you are so much like your mom! Since I was a kid, I know very clearly that I want to be like you. As my brothers would always say to you, “your daughter is exactly like you! She has copied everything about you since she was small. You have indeed trained her so well that her actions, her thoughts and even emotions are exactly like yours!”. I take all the good and the not so good ones. It is because of your complete being that makes you unique and special that is why you are admired and loved by many. But there are some things I missed out and have always wished I had – your beauty, elegance, grace and poise which many people admire you for.
These past 11 years were really a great journey, I would like to think we had the best mother daughter bonding. As I promised papa, I will take care of you the way he did to my best ability. That is why, we became inseparable just like you and papa.These past two years, you have been extra sweet to me. I would wake up in the middle of the night seeing and feeling you caressing me. My face, my arms, my legs, even my tummy. When you had sleepless nights, you would do crazy things like squeezing my chubby cheeks to wake me up and accompany you through the night until you fell asleep. At times, I would get annoyed but then I realize that these are priceless moments which I will forever cherish in my heart and so I just let you do whatever will comfort you and make you happy.  In the morning, when we wake up, you would look at me and give me a big smile to start our happy day.
Few days before you passed away, I woke up in the middle of the night, seeing you staring at me again holding my left cheek, but this time I noticed a certain sadness in your eyes. Without a word, I knew what you were thinking. You were worried about me being unmarried again. I did not say anything but just hugged you to sleep. I did not realize that our days together were already numbered.
Recently, while we were about to sleep and talking, you suddenly uttered these words to me. “ I am so lucky and you are not”. I knew what you meant by that. I just said, how can I not be lucky when at this age I still have you beside me, taking care of me like a baby. And to be able to take care of you full time is a blessing not everyone has.
Thinking about all these sweet conversations between you and me, and all the things we did together all these years, I feel truly blessed and grateful that you were my MAMA.
All of a sudden, my life has changed. Up to now, I cannot believe and accept that you are already gone. Life will never be the same again without you. Mama, your sudden departure is truly heartbreaking but I cannot ask for more. You and papa have given us the best life any child could ask for. It would be so selfish of me to still hold you back when it is your time now to go home to be with our Lord and be reunited with Papa. Do not worry about me, I promise to be strong and will do my best to be the daughter that you will always be proud of.
Mama, rest and be at peace. I will surely miss you everyday. I love you.
译文


《没有遗憾的告别》
/ 蔡相钰
﹝思恩译﹞

心心相连
满满溢出的爱在我们之间流淌
还有什么要说的呢？
还记得当爸爸去世后，我很害怕您会追随爸爸而去，我时常向上帝祈祷，祈祷祂不要将您从我身边带走， 在失去爸爸后，我最害怕的便是再失去挚爱的妈妈。甜蜜如您们，形影不离的恩爱夫妻，我知道您的世界随着爸爸的离开而支离破碎。每一天无论在何处，您都会呼叫着爸爸的名字： Mia… Mia… 这已经成了您日以为常的习惯。直到您与爸爸天堂团聚前，您用十一年陪伴您同样深爱的儿女们，与我们一起创造了许多快乐的回忆。

即使您渴望随爸爸而去，但您仍坚强地让生活中的一切事物如往常运作。您并没停下来休息，在悲伤中您依旧掌勺、管理店务，事无巨细，样样亲为。当所有人都以为您生活没了盼头并都在担心您的时候，您又一次震惊了所有人，在不到三年的时间内，您成立了「月曲了文艺基金会」， 出版了三本散文集，「镜内」 、「你走后」，「异梦同床」， 甚至还举办了现代诗征文比赛，让爸爸爱诗的精神得以延续。

妈妈，您和爸爸是如此的优秀，能作为您们的儿女，思汗、相提和我是何等的幸运。在我们成长的道路上，您们给予我们满满的爱与关怀。未来的日子或许是不安且孤独的，但请不用担心我们，尤其是我，带着上帝的恩典和怜悯，我知道没什么好担心的。而且作为您的完美复制品，我会像您教育我那样，成为一个跟您一样勇敢坚强的人。

每当人们告诉我，你跟你妈妈是如此相像时，我的内心满是骄傲与自豪。当我还是孩子的时候，我就很清楚地知道， 我想像您一样。正如思汗和相提对您说的：「相钰和您一模一样！ 她从小就承袭了您的一切，您的动作，您的思维，甚至脾气都和您一样！」我继承了您完美和不完美的一切。您是如此独特，才会让这么多人爱戴您。我努力学着您的样子，却还是没来得及学会您那受人爱戴的——美丽，优雅，风度！

过去的十一年，于我而言，是一个美妙经历。我们拥有最亲密无间的母女关系，正如我答应爸爸那样，我会尽我所能地像他照顾您那般地照顾您，从此，与您形影不离的人，由爸爸变成了我。

过去两年，您对我格外疼惜，在夜半朦胧时，您偶尔会轻抚我的脸庞，我的胳膊，我的大腿甚至我的肚子。当您无法入眠时，您会更加“过分”，比如轻捏我胖乎乎的脸颊，来将我唤醒，陪您说话，伴您入眠。一开始，我会有一些起床气，但当我意识到这将会是属于我俩之间最珍贵且难忘的时光时，只要能让您开心，我就放任您揉捏。清晨，当我们醒来，您会给我一个灿烂的笑容，以此开始我们快乐的一天。

在您要离开的前几天，半夜迷迷糊糊中，我看到您捧着我的脸颊看着我，只是这次，我从您眼中看见了些许担忧。您一言不发，但我知道您在担心什么，您担心我至今单身，担心我无人照顾。我什么也没说，轻轻拥您入睡。这时，我还没有意识到，您即将离我们而去。

最近，在我们睡前说悄悄话的时候，您突然不断重复地对我说；「我很幸运，何惜你不幸福。」我明白您的意思，我只想说，在我这个年纪，您还在身边，并且您还像照顾婴儿那样事无巨细地照顾着我，怎么说我不幸福呢？况且我还能一整天陪在您身边，这福份并非每个人都有。想到我们之间的温馨对话，以及这些年我们一起做的每件事，我都非常庆幸有您这样的妈妈！

霎那间，我的生活发生了翻天覆地的变化，直到现在，我还不敢相信，也不愿接受您已经走了的事实。没有您，生活将永远不再一样。妈妈！我很难过，但我不能奢求更多。您和爸爸己经留给我们最美满的人生了，所以当时间到了，您要回归天堂与爸爸团聚，我不能自私地将您强留在身边。不用担心我，我会坚强的，并尽我所能成为一位让您骄傲的女儿！

妈妈！您放心地去吧，思念将伴随我的每一天。妈妈，我爱您！


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